Into The Nothing by BT Urruela



To say I have been looking forward to this book would be an understatement. I loved reading “A Lover’s Lament” by BT and KL Grayson, and I was beyond excited when I heard BT was coming out with his own book.

So, without further ado, here is the synopsis:

Xander Evans has been on the road for many years. Never settling. Always moving from one place to another, unable to let go of his past. He lived a tragic childhood, spending most of those years in foster care. He’s never felt like he’s had a home.

That is until he stops in the small town of Truman Valley, Missouri, where he meets a woman who will change everything he’s ever known.

Paige Watson has it all. A loving family, beautiful home, and a great career. The only thing she’s missing….is love. After escaping an abusive relationship, she opens her heart up to a stranger. He is unlike any man she’s ever met. He came into her life and turned it completely upside down. Everything is perfect. That is, until one fateful night. 

A night that would tear the Watson family apart, never to be put back together again. 

A night that would send Xander away to prison for life.

I’m trying to find a really eloquent way to say this but I haven’t come up with one in the few minutes that I’ve sat here, but BT fucking gutted me within the first couple chapters. I felt so bad for Teresa. With that said, I thought it was a smart way to start for a few reasons. First, it was unique. But it also piqued my interest. I kept wondering if Xander really did this, and then subsequently, I kept wondering who else it may have been.

Paige and Xander meeting and the beginnings of their relationship are great. It was so light, flirtatious, exciting. I loved seeing them spend time with Paige’s family and friends, and how they interacted together. But things start to change.

I am honestly conflicted on parts of this story. I liked the overall plot. I thought BT did a great job at weaving in love, conflict, and mystery. I think I would have liked to see more development of Paige and Xander. Both had a lot of history that I think needed just a little more time to hear about. Not excessive but an extra couple chapters would have made it a bit easier to see and understand their individual backstories.

The ending of the book is heartbreaking. Seeing what appears to be a perfect family completely shattered was horrible. Again, I’m really torn on this. A part of me wished for more emotion from Paige, in regards to the last chapters of the book. But at the same time, I also feel like Paige was moving on and she needed to move on. She couldn’t just stay and wallow in her own sorrows.

I think some of the best books that are out there cause you to feel angry, hurt, conflicted. Even if I don’t like something, but it got a strong reaction out of me, I feel like the author accomplished their goal. With this story, BT managed to make me feel elated, sorrowful, heartbroken and hopeful all in one book. I am truly looking forward to what he comes out with in the future.

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